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Haven't updated a journal in awhile. Or anything, really. (But come now, you can't really be surprised, can you?) Although there may be a change soon. Maybe. I've been having severe writing issues for a long time and I'm working hard to fix it right now. It'll be a long process but at least I'm going for it. One thing I realize might help me would be posting chapters I finished, so that's what I intend to do. I considered making a poll out of it then decided that was stupid. Sorry to everyone who watches me only for my photography and don't want to see me posting literature, but that's what I used to do way back when and I'm going to do it again. (Good thing I don't really care about dA popularity. :D)

It'll be a long story and what I'm hoping for most is responses. Are there parts that just don't make sense? Could be worded better? That's what I need. Although I'll still be thrilled if there's people who just want to read it and enjoy it. This is a work in progress, but I hope it'll grow to be a long work in progress with many pages as opposed to being stuck on the old version. I'm trying to fix the story and my characters, for everything to make more sense and be more true to their aims.

I noticed I never posted the map I made of my world. Not sure if I ever intend to. (I don't want someone taking it or something.) But maybe if I really get going I'll go ahead and throw it up. I remember showing it to all my friends when I made it because I was all sorts of proud of it since it was the first map I actually worked on and felt it turned out pretty well. Maybe I'll post a simplified version of it and leave out all the parts that aren't focused on. We'll see.

As for my photography, wow. I still have a lot of unedited stuff I could probably use, and ideas I could probably work on, but my goal right now is my writing. Perhaps I'll do a photo or two between chapters, but I'm not going to aim too high. XD I know how I can be.

~ Lidia

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So I wake up and stagger over to my laptop and I have a message from OlMountainWoman. "GET ON DEVIANT NOW" No explanation and she was signed off by the time I I got it. So I'm sitting here thinking, "OH GOD DID DEVIANTART IMPLODE?!" Get on deviant and it all looks the same. I glance up at my messages. Over two hundred. But I checked them last night! That never happens unless I ignore dA! Click on it and people have been mass faving Infinity and I have no comment on my page as to telling me it got featured by someone big and I'm so utterly confused on how it go so much spotlight so fast.

So I click on it and I have Daily Deviation. lolwut? I don't even know how to apply for that. I can't even find the dA Daily Deviations without Googleing it first. (Which I did to see myself sitting there and preen my feathers.)

So I want to say despite this causing me horrible confusion is that I'M SO VERY HAPPY THANK YOU ALL. I might even post another image today because yay! Maybe I'll combine two in honor of Infinity! Except OlMountainWoman is dragging me off to a wine tasting so it might have to come later tonight or tomorrow depending.

:w00t: :squee: :dance: :happybounce:

ESPECIALLY THANKS TO OLMOUNTAINWOMAN BECAUSE SHE SUBMITTED IT WHEN I HAD NO IDEA HOW AND I ALMOST FEEL LIKE I DON'T DESERVE IT. LOL
:iconolmountainwoman:

I'm awful. ;D But this is my first Daily Deviation and I'm really unknown as far as I'm concerned (which is probably why I was so confused) so bubbles and thanks for everyone! I also usually give llamas to people who fav my work and I still plan to do that. IT'S JUST GOING TO TAKE ME FOREVER SORRY GUYS.

Thank you, thank you all. :iconcutiesmileplz:

First Daily Deviation EVER:
Infinity by SongOfAwakening

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These are the ten winners of the Faithful llama Trader list who won this week! If you want llamas be sure to send them llamas and you'll certainly get llamas back from all of them! ^_^

:iconchillpillz::iconlyoth737::iconchibitalia-luver::iconsonjavanessa::iconnataliehollick::iconzukpager305::iconaquarior::icondeadxgirlsxdance::icon4hellcat::iconxxxladysamxxx:

I'm.. I'm not doing this to get more llamas. << >>

IN OTHER NEWS.
I'm considering posting pictures of me as a model rather than as the photographer. The only problem is I'm not sure if I want people watching me only for pictures of me and not my actual photography, not that I, you know, post that often. XD; It's just something that I've considered doing. I've also considered starting to do stock because people could probably do some pretty cool stuff with my stock. I also purposely take pictures of texture that might be useful to some people. Though if I do this I'll certainly make a second account for all my stock.

So where is my photography? In a folder, ignored. I've been working on my writing (that I'm not going to post anytime soon...) and playing video games and working and I started RPing again recently. Hopefully I'll get around to it soon. I have the new photoshop and it's basically the same as the last one, but I've been making avatars and signatures for the forum so maybe that'll spread to me working on my photography. XD

~ Lidia
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Hai Everything! Here's another update for all that I.. yeah.. have done barely anything. I should get on that. Maybe I even will rather than saying it. ^^; Anyhow! I've been busy with work and people and Sims 3. (Yes, that last addition probably makes it so any excuses are moot. That's okay. I deserve it.) So yes, that's what I've been up to: video games. And work. I /have/ been working a lot, at least. I should also really get an interesting journal skin, but that's something for another time. Anyhow, onward to the interesting part of this journal.

:iconastrikos:
LightningHeart's contest has come to an end and I'm doing a feature for the winners! She did a contest that helped to include both artists and art appreciators called Share the dA Love. And now for the actual feature.

:icontaibossigai: Taibossigai

Ojibwe Butterfly by taibossigai Maho's head by taibossigai Giraffe at Sunset by taibossigai
Nahid - Summer Forest by taibossigai Guardian Lion by taibossigai Horse and butterflies by taibossigai
Three trees by taibossigai A Million Lights in the Sky by taibossigai Bear and Northern Lights by taibossigai
Three Horses by taibossigai Sea Turtle by taibossigai Polar Bears Groove by taibossigai


:iconshayan-nayash: Shayan-Nayash

[[I am]]
I am the one whose life story is an unknown tragedy
I am like a twisted black and white image
I am a nightingale trapped inside a cold iron cage
I am a fragile rose which gets cut by the Scissors of heartless society
I am the caring beast which gets attacked by people
I am autumn in the heart of an invisible spring
I am the one tired of this world and it's meaningless checkpoints
I am the one who shouts if we don't live like humans what's the point?
I am the one Tired of being best and getting nothing in life's bitter end
I am the one who hears the universe's sorrow sound
I am the one who is grief bound
I am the one whose words makes rhapsody of tragedy
My words filled with sorrow and defiance
My life is the story I write which is full of hate & revenge
My soul is the thin paper which gets torn apart by them
I am the one who became old in child hood
I am a poor little girl who wishes to only have a new dress
I am a depressed young boy whose life is just a forced confess
I am the widow
[[Power mania]]
Anything is empty without power
Those who defy in the end will cower
Step up and find the source
Follow the control's course
Find the power at all cost
That is the only, only must
Smash your humanism cage
Welcome your dark heritage
Free your inner rage
As night draws near
Herald the news of fear
By Shayan Shahsavary
[[LIKE YOU]] by Shayan-Nayash
{{BORN IN GRAVE}}
Left alone in slumber
Disgraced and humble
Deprived from a drop of joy
Played with like a toy
Hard on the fake surface
But breaking with fast pace
Rusty and forgotten like a plastic doll
And only dust covers my soul
It looks I've been born in grave
Trapped in a world of black and grey
And no one to comfort me
But only the whispers in my head which abhor me
being different enraptured me
Their cruelty Cage captured me
It looks they don't know what is humanity
Trapped here till eternity
It looks I've been born in grave
Trapped in a world of black and grey
And no one to comfort me
But only the whispers in my head which abhor me
Cried a thousand tears
Filled with illusional fears  
A beast with a broken heart
With an immortal scar
Made by their brutality art
Left behind
Melancholy fills my mind
My soul which was once kind
now shouts to me
"I'll wipe the world away
I will shine with depression ray"
It looks I've been born in grave
Trapped in a world of black and grey
And no one to
[[Without You]]
Two souls Two sights
Two hearts Two goals
Two lights Two parts
Two passengers in road of life
We learned to play music of life
We passed the shadows and dusk
We broke the difference mask
We taught this is the end
Except god none sees our souls blend
Two miseries
Two memories
With sadness
The strangers in this world of madness
In the end time separated our hands
We became lost in darkness land
In the end of all those laughs and smiles
Were envious eyes of time
Two cages
Two separated flames
In this cursed realm of names
BY Shayan Shahsavary
[[FEELINGS WITHIN ME AND YOU]]
Rage is a flame
Sleeping and untamed
A beast in chains
Waiting for a chance To howl trough my head like a train
Creates an endless war in me
Irresistible even if I flee
Revenge is a rain
Made of blood and hate
And you will realize this only when it is late
Follows you in a dark and lone lane
Flows through you and you'll never be the same
Sorrow is a name
Name of the misery created by those who are to blame
A bullet for dreams and days
A black crow which never flies away
Shame is a game
A game won or lost the same
A feeling which never lets you fly
No matter how much you try
Stress is like a formal dress
We must wear it all the time nevertheless
An unbeatable and everlasting feeling
An invisible and fearsome ceiling
Lust a castle made of dust
We yearn to reach it at all cost
An illusionary dream for all of us
A fake sun made by the reflection of frost
These are the demons that for defeating them we strive
Which will be with us for the rest of our lives
By Shayan Shahsavary

Shadow Of A Soul
Another day you can't open your eyes sun shines on your face as your mind is burning to ashes.
You are lost in these meaningless days you want to shout but you can't even talk.
Nothing is important now but you can't forget the dark nights which you are fully awake in them just like the day after them.
The Unwanted things you want to do start again
Fake smiles and bitter vigorous tries
An eternal sadness in your meaningful eyes, rotting in your dreams the reason of your bitter life.
Alone, tired and broken with two chained wings
Just like a black and white book Covered by dust
Somehow old like a forsaken keepsake
In your every page is a hidden meaning
In your every page is an Ignored feeling
A thousand Unknown words hidden in you
With contrasts which always roam inside you
Any time you try to move
You will get thrown back
You can't stay but they won't let you go
Like me and like many others who were like us in their lives
We were those who their  dreams only became written in
[[UNLEASHED]]
Untie me from this earthly ties
Let me destroy this world of lies
Unleashing the power of revenge
Let me end all this renege
Falling meteors from the sky
To finally stop all this cries
Flames of purification in my command
Leaving nothing from the distorted land
Leaving only The ash and dust
Your lives will be the cost
Standing on top of tyranny tower
A message to all who will cower
Know that this is the end
I am cutting off this cursed world's bend
This is end of your earthly life
Your throat's will be cut by my vengeance knife
by Shayan Shahsavary
//BREATHE YOUR LAST BREATH\\ by Shayan-Nayash
{{Requital}}
Standing tall till you fade
Till blood satisfies my blade
I fight for true requital
waiting patiently till you fall
Dancing death dance in this grim ball
When demonic fiends howl
For bringing the peace I prowl
As I burn the evil's palace hall
I will watch the demons fall
Purity is the reason I came
Prosperity is what I claim
Winged assassin is my name called
As I made the false prophet fall
By Shayan Shahsavary
{{{Retribution}}}
I am the half blood prince               your dark soul will  be cleansed
You will fall to your bare knees                As you will face atonement for your sins
[Whispering Female voice -Heavy atmosphere-Minimal fast rhythm]
A knight will rise             In light's demise             Will he succeed in this Mortal ties?
In this world of lies            full of tears of eyes        Will he stop darkness tides?
[Unclean Male voice-Loud vocals-Fast rhythm]
Welcome to the forest  of shadows and Despair
A place where you can hear the darkness whispers
Palace of lies and regret
For bringing
The Last Battle
As I stand on top of a cliff
I look down to the Endless Enemy Armies
SLUMBER,OBLIVION,PRIDE,THIEVES&HUNGER
And killing all of us is their craving
As I touch the last fallen leaf of a tree
I feel the caress of wind and breeze
Giving me a farewell for the battle that is to come
They Whisper to me we will help you in this last battle till they are gone
Cause all you fight for are hopes,dreams
We help you to bring back freedom
Now I can hear the beat of Drums sound
My last tears slowly fall on the ground
I grasp my Sword and shield to protect my loved ones
I feel that my death is awaiting so let it come
I charge to the heart of enemy As my courage shines their fear grows
My red painted sword is making blood rainbows
My fellow warriors grasp their bows
Sky is filled with their liberty bringing arrows
My shield takes a thousand blows
I feel the flight of hatred crows
One enemy at left one at right
All I can see is death in my sight
I grasp my sword and shield once more tight
I am running wit


Congratulations to both of them for winning the contest! And a llama for each because that's how I work. ~cough~
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Well, I'm back from Wyoming with 400+ pictures to look at! And upon looking at them, I've decided that mimicking snowfall in any pictures shouldn't involve more than a brush that puts a dots all over the picture. At first I thought there was shit on my lens. But maybe I'll try making them look pretty and upload some. At some point. :D I also got pictures of wild horses, a skull, waterfalls, etc. At some point I shall be posting these things. Hopefully it's soon, if not blame my video games.

Been working more on writing. Don't know if I want to upload it as I write it or not. We'll see. Maybe Heather can motivate me into attempting some photo manipulations or something, too. ~flail~

~ Lidia
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